As you may have noticed, posting has been scarcer than usual lately. I only have one final exam this semester, I had two projects, a test and a paper to write, plus BLSA stuff and life. Things are winding down, but until I finish up with school and a have few days to get my creative juices flowing again here’s some bits and pieces to hold you over 🙂
- I realized that I have a stress problem. Things keep happening to me physically this year (pinched nerve flare up, sprained knee, muscle spasms, heartburn) and I finally got the connection that things only go wrong when I’m super stressed out. I literally make myself sick with worry and tension and it’s not healthy. Aside from lactose-intolerance related vitamin D deficiency, everything checked out A-ok at my physical last month- but I know that as I age and lose my youthful resilience, that won’t always be the case. So I’m committing to exercising at least 3x/week starting this holidaybreak. Exercise relaxes me, but then I get stressed and feel too tired to work out, and stay feeling stressed, and then develop some physical ache or pain that keeps me sidelined, creating more stress so the cycle continues. I don’t have an anxiety disorder, I just need to breathe and take better care of myself.
- I think I have engagement fatigue. I can’t wait to just get married already! It’s totally irrational, but engagement is like relationship limbo to me. You’re more than a girlfriend, not quite a spouse, and we’ve known we wanted to marry each other since 18 months in to our relationship so yeah. It’s time to get the ball rolling! Fortunately, we’re taking engagement pics and looking at some venues over the break.
- Speaking of relationships, I hate when single people act like it’s all peaches and cream once you find an SO. Sorry to burst y’all’s bubbles, but it’s still work. Good relationships don’t stay good without a conscious effort on both sides to make it so! Listening when you feel like screaming, compromising when you feel like staging a dramatic exit, figuring out how to air your grievances without unnecessarily hurting the other person’t feelings or pride- none of that comes naturally. Engagement/marriage comes with an even bigger struggle, which is figuring out how to integrate another person into your life without losing your autonomy. Even the simplest of decisions, like weekend plans, require some forethought .
- Voting with your wallet can be problematic. Corporations get away with terrible business practices because people continue to buy their goods and services. Prime example? Wal-Mart. Well, Costco offers the same low prices but there’s no Costco in Orangeville. It’s terribly inconvenient to time my grocery shopping around trips to the City, and even then neither Tex nor I have the storage space to buy everything in bulk. Now, Target is another option but like Walmart, they screw over their employees by making it so that you have to be available to work 24/7/365 to make it to full time. You can’t get a set shift because they change them every week. Yet, they hire thousands of temporary workers every holiday season rather than give existing staff more hours. But…it’s Target and I’m addicted :'( And let’s not even get into the food industry. It’s all organic meat & produce once I get a full time gig!
- Divorce sucks for women. During my practicum, I saw a woman in court with 4 kids, no degree & no job trying to get a raise on her $1750/mo child support. It takes about $1200/mo just for my bare necessities! Even if I quit working, at least I’ll have 2 degrees.
- Pregnancy becomes downright TERRIFYING the more I learn about it. Gestational diabetes, miscarriages, not to mention the endless unsolicited advice & horror stories people give you. My mom is laying the groundwork for the Grandbaby Campaign, talmbout “there’s no perfect time to have children!” Uh…yes there is. And that time is not before I’ve been married at least two years!